It’s Not About Me

Jesus. The Beginning and the End. The Alpha and Omega. Holiness, Perfection, Beauty, Love, Purity, Truth, Strength, Compassion, Righteousness – Jesus. Life is so much more about Jesus and so much less about my own self. Life is so much better when Jesus – when The Beginning and the End, the Alpha and Omega, the Holy One, Perfect One, Beautiful One, Loving One, Pure One, True One, Strong One, Compassionate One, and Righteous One is at the center of my attention.

I’m looking for rest continually. Rest from my struggles, rest from life – just rest. But I don’t always look for that rest in the right place. I try and find that rest in myself. I try to do what is right, I try to be perfect, I try to love Jesus more, I try to pray the right things, I try to do the right things, and inevitably I become lost in myself which is the last place where I will find rest.

Psalm 62:5 says,

“Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my help comes from him.

And Jesus said,

“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matt. 11:28-30)

Jesus is teaching me that rest is found in Him. It’s found in His perfection, in His glory, in His holiness, in His truth, in His beauty, in His righteousness, in His purity, and in His love. I don’t have to perfect any of these qualities to find rest – Jesus is perfect in all of them already, and I am in Him, and I am allowed to rest in His perfect goodness. Thank You, Jesus.

“Come and see what I will do.”

This phrase has been placed in my mind. This life is not about me, it’s not as much about what I do, but more about what Jesus has done and is doing. And as His child, he is reaching down and inviting me to come along and see what He will do; what He will do in my life, what He will do around me, what He will do. There is nothing more satisfying, nothing more restful and fulfilling than seeing Jesus in all His glory do what only He can do. And the things that He does are glorious – He is the one who tramples my enemies under my feet, who heals my hurts, who frees me from my chains.

Jesus invites me daily to let go of myself, to lay down my yoke, to take up His, to take hold of his hand, and to watch and see what He is going to do. Jesus is great and glorious beyond my comprehension, and what he offers is the perfect rest and fulfillment for my soul. It is what this life is all about – not myself, but Christ Jesus, and Him crucified, resurrected, and glorious. Come and see what He will do.

Denying Self

“Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them.” –John 13:17

Doing is hard. It can be painful, time-consuming, not pleasurable, and wearying. I want to be free from whatever struggle it is that I am currently facing, but I don’t always want to work hard for it. I don’t want to sacrifice for it. I want to just continue on with my normal life, be free of the struggles that are hindering me from living it, and move on. Isn’t that what God wants for my life? He doesn’t want me to struggle daily with burdens, to have to persevere in doing hard things.

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Desiring Perfection

There have been many times when I’ve felt so upset at my failures and shortcomings. I become angry at myself whenever I fail, mess up, or sin. I become angry when I require help, and when I easily tire at persevering through trials and struggles. I want to be strong for God; I want to please God; I want to do everything right.

While I can acknowledge that it’s impossible for me to do everything right, I still find myself upset and discouraged whenever I mess up. At times like this I often rally and resolve to do better next time. I become consumed with my quest for perfection. That’s a good thing, right? Shouldn’t I be trying to perfect, sanctify, and renew myself daily? Doesn’t that please God?

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Jesus True and Only

     There is only one answer for every problem, only one healer for every hurt, only one rock in which to hide, only one person who alone can save. His Name is Jesus. He never forsakes His people, He hears every single prayer, He catches every single tear, and He is here. If I was asked what the one thing would be that I would tell someone struggling with anxiety, fear, doubt, or depression, it would be this: Jesus. He is the only one in all my struggles that has never failed me.

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Dealing with Bitterness

“Why, God?” I used to think that this question was harmless. Many times during different struggles I would ask God this question. I felt like I was doing what I was supposed to: reading my Bible and praying every day, trying my hardest to obey in everything and doing what was right. I felt like it was unfair that I should be struggling. I was doing the right things, and I didn’t want to struggle with anxiety, fear, doubts or sinful thoughts. Besides, I saw other people who weren’t doing all that I was, and they didn’t have any of the problems that I was facing on a daily basis. It wasn’t fair       didn’t make sense. “So, why God?”

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