Be Still, There is Light

Life is hard. It’s not that difficult to notice, to see, and to hear the darkness around us. It’s everywhere and it affects everyone. It steals. It kills. It destroys.
Sometimes in my life, the darkness around me becomes stifling—constraining. Like a giant black dragon coiling around me in an ever-tightening circle. It’s ugly, it’s sickening, it’s terrible. I hear stories on the news, read articles, and come across traces of this dragon everywhere I turn. It seems like my life and other’s are full of darkness—of pain and suffering. Some of it we bring on ourselves, others times it has been forced upon us. So the question comes up. Is this life? Is this what we are here for? Is it even worth it? Will it ever end? Are there better days ahead?
God has been showing me something lately, something to remind me when I feel that dragon circling close.
“You have seen how dark the darkness is. Now let me show you how bright the light is.”
I imagine God telling me this. I imagine a protective glow of warm light surrounding me on every side, shielding and loving. Continue reading “Be Still, There is Light”

Afraid of Dying

Caroline, at one point, battled a fear of dying. Every discomfort was an impending disease, every symptom was evidence of a fatal doom. She had trouble getting to sleep at night because she was afraid she would die while she was asleep. I could relate, having faced a fear of dying more than once before myself. Here is how I counseled her and how I counsel myself.

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Free From Fear

When I say that I know what it is to be bound by fear I don’t just mean that I know what it feels like to be afraid of things. I’m talking about, I was a grown woman, in my early twenties, married, and had two small children, and when the kids had been put to bed and the sun went down I would be curled up in the corner of my room in the fetal position absolutely terrified and paralyzed with fear. Now, almost two decades later, I’m free. The nightmares are gone. The terror is gone. The cowering in corners is gone. You want to know my secret? I’ll tell you. Continue reading “Free From Fear”